Man, I am bored out of my bloody mind. I'm working as a lab assistant in the university art building. And not a single soul has been here for two hours. Other than mine, I mean. I have a soul. Whatever. Anyway, I am lonely as hell. I've had a crappy weekend and I just want to complain about it to someone. Someone who will listen intently and really feel pity for me. Someone who will smile encouragingly, wink, give my arm a squeeze and say, "Don't worry, tomorrow will be better." Actually, when I think back, my crappy weekend was really just an extension of a crappy week. And it isn't just one of those crappy weeks that pops up every now and then and then gives way to a good week, because today wasn't so great either. What's going on?

Today I skipped two classes. For no real reason. Well, I skipped one because I had to do the homework that just never got finished this weekend--for some odd reason I accomplished absolutely nothing this weekend, except for feeling crappy. And then of course I had to skip another one because once you start skipping, it's really hard to stop. I don't usually skip unless it's a stupid class that I don't care about, just because hey, dude, I'm paying for it out of my own shallow pockets. Today has just been messed, man.

And once again, I'm sitting in a building, ENTIRELY ALONE! Don't people have homework, or something? I'm tempted to crank my music up and start dancing crazy, or something. That would for sure bring a few hacks in.

I'm in one of those moods where I'm sick of being me. You know, where you just wish you could have a break from being yourself and be someone new and exciting. (Hey, not that I'm not exciting...) And I'm sick of looking like me, too. Does anyone else think it's kind of boring that we have to spend our entire lives trapped in the same old body? Don't you ever just look in the mirror and want to change things around a little bit? Whatever. All I know is that I'm thinking about going by "Jezzie" instead of "Jessie", and getting my long hair cut reeeal short. And maybe wearing false eyelashes. Or thick-framed glasses. Something definitely needs to change...

One last gripe. Something else that puts me in a bad mood--Valentine's Day. No, I'm not being a bitchy single girl. Ok, so maybe I am. But since when has Valentine's Day turned into an ENTIRE week of celebration??? Today I actually heard reference to Valentine's WEEK. Jerks. I feel another crappy week coming on... --Jezzie